Ring out the bells

Why do you constantly let me down? You would think I'd be used to it by now. Well, I am, but it still gets to me, a tiny bit, each time it happens. I don't know, maybe I think you've let me down so much in the past that you really couldn't do it anymore.

Ha. How wrong was I?

I don't know why you felt the need to lie. Or, if not lie, just NOT tell me. I honestly don't care what you do with your life, you don't need to avoid telling me. I'm not going to react badly. I probably wont react much at all. Apathetic.

I do feel sorry for her though. She's probably a lovely girl. She doesn't know what she's letting herself in for. You've probably fooled her too. Does she even really know about me? ALL about me, I mean, not just my existence.

You're by no means on your own in this. You're not the first one to let me down. I've been emotionally bruised quite a lot lately. It's quite possibly why this doesn't get me down like it should. I've stopped expecting anything from anyone.

But ring your bells, walk your aisle, and throw your flowers. I won't be there to watch. Not that it matters, you haven't missed me so far, have you?

Quick Review: Twilight Saga's New Moon

It's fair to say, that after the monstrosity of an adaptation that was 'Twilight', I was fairly apprehensive about 'New Moon'. While I love 'Twilight' as a standalone film, it misses many of the elements that make the book so appealing. I could rant about the smaller details that were missed that would have truly enhanced the film for fans, but I won't. This review is not about 'Twilight'.

'New Moon' was, in a word, amazing. It had everything it was supposed to, and more. Chris Weitz really did everything that Catherine Hardwick failed to do. It was, simply, the book, on screen.

It's hard to know if it was because of better directing, or just a familiarity with the roles that they didn't have in 'Twilight', but the actors portrayed the characters much better, and it was far easier to see them as the characters we love from the book (in 'Twilight', while the names were the same, the emotions and traits just..weren't there.). They were more comfortable in the roles, and that came across on screen.

I was worried about how the wolf pack, and more specifically, the actual wolves would be created, but I needn't have been. They were exactly as I had pictured..perhaps more frightening. (I'd go on about CGI or whatever you call it...if I knew anything about that type of thing!) There isn't a huge amount of screen time for the wolves in 'New Moon', so I am really excited about 'Eclipse', which should feature them a lot more.

The film also gives us our first glimpse of the Volturi, the royal family and lawkeepers of the vampire world. Being so used to the Cullens, how friendly, and good they are, meeting the Volturi shows us really just how menacing and dangerous their world is. Michael Sheen as Aro was fantastic. He played the role perfectly...I cannot praise him enough.

There's very little I can say without ruining it (though really, as was pointed out to me, all you need to do is read the book to know what the film is like)...it truly was amazing, and I would recommend it to EVERYONE. Go see it. Do it. Do it NOW!

21 years (almost)

How fast it goes...

Skip about 8 years that I can find NO pictures from..

Not just me?

I'm a daughter through a text.

Playing dress up

Sometimes, I hate being a grown up. As grown ups go, I'm still relatively childish, but sometimes I just wish I was an actual child again, with no responsibilites, no job. When your best friend is for life, boys are icky, and school is the biggest worry in your life.

Being a grown up, of course, has it's advantages. But sometimes I miss having the decisions made for me, having someone there to take care of me. Like, proper care. Making sure I'm fed everyday, putting me to bed at a decent hour and tucking me in. The things I resented most back then are the things I miss the most now.

And, the more I think about it, the more I realise that really, I am still a child, a child that's playing dress up, dressing up as a grown up. I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm going through life blindly, hoping I make the right decisions, build the right relationships, make the right choices. I think I'm doing ok so far, but I'm terrified that I'll mess it up. Those worries didn't exist when I was a child. Being a child was blissfully ignorant.

They say youth is wasted on the young. And I'm coming to understand that.