Monday, 30 November 2009

Ring out the bells

Why do you constantly let me down? You would think I'd be used to it by now. Well, I am, but it still gets to me, a tiny bit, each time it happens. I don't know, maybe I think you've let me down so much in the past that you really couldn't do it anymore.

Ha. How wrong was I?

I don't know why you felt the need to lie. Or, if not lie, just NOT tell me. I honestly don't care what you do with your life, you don't need to avoid telling me. I'm not going to react badly. I probably wont react much at all. Apathetic.

I do feel sorry for her though. She's probably a lovely girl. She doesn't know what she's letting herself in for. You've probably fooled her too. Does she even really know about me? ALL about me, I mean, not just my existence.

You're by no means on your own in this. You're not the first one to let me down. I've been emotionally bruised quite a lot lately. It's quite possibly why this doesn't get me down like it should. I've stopped expecting anything from anyone.

But ring your bells, walk your aisle, and throw your flowers. I won't be there to watch. Not that it matters, you haven't missed me so far, have you?